Love impossible

This is my 1st post, virgin entry. Well, let me attempt.... hm.... jus talk abt something general, Love.

Most pple, at a young age hope to find that someone to love and be loved wholeheartedly in return. Besides God, is there no true love elsewhere? Why is it so difficult to find that somebody? After you ‘ve found that someone, it’s another uphill task to maintain the passion and relationship. Is happiness such hard work?

Relationship after relationship, doesn’t it get tiresome and tedious? You fall in love with someone really special, u think u were made for each other. Your love seemed the greatest thing that ever happened in the world. News of men walking on moon paled in comparison to your love. You think then that the whole world evolved just for both of you. Your entire world revolved around that someone. Just then, least expectedly, things turn sour, bad, the fiery passion fade to naught. Who get the blame? Regrets, remorse, bitterness, all the negative feelings overwhelmed you. Is it worth it at the end of the day? If not, why do we do it again and again in an attempt to find it and make it right?

You resuscitate a broken or even dead heart, revive and restore it, u nurse it back to health, accumulate enough savings in your love bank. And just when u give your all, putting all your stakes in one bet, forgetting about the past mistake made, you fall in love with the wrong person, ta-daa! There u go, your past mistake staring right at you in your face, making you feel like the greatest loser in the world. Why didn’t we listen to our investment gurus and diversify our bets? Would it make it better? Why do we make the same mistakes over and over again? Human managed to conquer the moon, invent the gigantic flying machines to shrink the distance, why didn’t they come up with a formula for a fool proof way to avoid all the pitfalls of Love? Or did they try but to no avail? Why is there such a great hoo-haa to love? Can it ever be define? Can anybody ever live without it, never desiring or hoping for it to come in their lives? Can our body and mind function well without it? If not, why do we take all these risk and hassles? As we relentlessly pursue love and happiness, what is it really that hook us?

That unselfish, agape love, does it exist at all? I m sorry but I m a cynic. It doesnt happen, at least not to me. Maybe it does happen, to pple around you, in fairytales, to your friends' friends you never heard of, but never to you. And that makes it worse, isnt it? Love is all around, happening to the short, fat, rude, unfaithful pple but never to you.

Even if u r rendered as above average looking or attractive by Singapore standards with pretty good dress sense It's not happening to you. Even if you are a good homemaker, submissive, faithful, love kids coupled with more than decent culinary skills, fun loving with great sense of humour. Independent, income tax paying citizen and owns a normal car, which means financially wise, u r pretty good by Singapore standard.

No, it's still not happening to you. And then in months, u are turning thirty. Pass your prime age oredi, gal!! Give it up!!! When has they put an imaginary expiry date on gals? Just because you pass that sweet mid twenties category age box.

Then you get comments that say the little success you are enjoying in your career is an obstacle to finding love. When has your earning power become a consideration to men, Singapore men who aren't that fabulous after all? Please..... And if I do become successful, I wanna be able to celebrate and not feel sorry for it. The wort part is I m not even ambitous or make a lot of money in the 1st place. I just wanna enjoy my work and do it well. But when men r successful, it become an asset. They earn 10 brownie points for that. But if u are a gal and is enjoying some career success, u lose 10 brownie points. You get punished for it. Ridiculous!!! When has a gal's economy valuebecome a stumbling block to her love life? Or maybe it's something else???